How to deal with it

So, it has been far to long since I have posted, and the reason is because I haven't really been out with anyone, per-se. I haven't been actively looking either. I have been, as we call -lame- Yes, I have been just about as lame as humanly possible on this whole dating scheme of mine.

I wish that I could say it is because I have been very busy with work, which I have been, or that things have just been going crazy in my life, which they also have been, but really it is because I am completely hung up on someone. And while it is driving me crazy, 90% of the time I feel like want to shoot myself in the foot, the rest of the time it makes me feel pretty great. Now, that is really not the best ratio of insanity/happiness that I have come across, but I suppose that it's better than nothing.

I am trying not to feel particularly down about my lack of attachment. However I have come to learn that since most of my friends are now in couples, I need to get moving sister. I pretty much hate it. It's never a good time to be the pathetic single friend in a room full of couples, it's also pretty embarrassing when your buddy tells you that life would be easier if only you had a boyfriend. That's what you get for being a cute girl with male BFFs. But I've taken this tangent too far...

My point is, I should never feel like the pathetic single girl. First of all being single in this city does not make you pathetic, second of all if I really wanted a boyfriend, I could lower my standards and make that happen in about 45 seconds. There are a fair number of men girlfriend shopping out there and they arent hard to hook. It's not about just finding someone to have someone. The whole point of this search is to find someone who gets you, someone who makes you laugh and thinks that your amazing, someone that you can feel completely at ease with when you feel completely awkward with the rest of the world. It should be beautiful, and it should fit, you should connect and it should defy all logic and expectation. And when that happens you know it and you should have to go looking for it.

In any case, now that I've gone all mushy on the unsuspecting public, lets look ahead. The summer is now upon us here in the big apple and that makes dating remarkably easier. It's easier to meet people reading in the park then it is holed up in your apartment under the covers because it's subarctic outside. So hopefully I will have more to report in the coming months.